Ready or Not, our lives do go on. Its crazy that were already almost to the end of February! Latest news- All of my blood work came back negative. What does that mean? Well the Dr never said really, but I'm sure there isn't an answer- it's not the answer they were looking for...and honestly there probably wont be one. because like I've said and felt so many times before; Matthew is where he is supposed to be.
I'm staying pretty busy: I threw a baby shower for my friend (due 2 weeks after me, having a boy) I might say that is one of the hardest things I have done this month. It challenged me to look forward to a blessing for someone- than in my rear view mirror at my loss. Pregnant women surround me; but it doesn't change anything. I can't be angry at them, I can't be upset with myself, because whether I'm Sad or Happy it doesn't change the fact that Matthew's gone. So I must step up to the batting plate, hit the ball, and run without continually looking back. Here I come 1st base.
Valentines Day came and went! We've decided to make it a tradition (just as last year) to just order a pizza and enjoy our little family.
I'm staying pretty busy: I threw a baby shower for my friend (due 2 weeks after me, having a boy) I might say that is one of the hardest things I have done this month. It challenged me to look forward to a blessing for someone- than in my rear view mirror at my loss. Pregnant women surround me; but it doesn't change anything. I can't be angry at them, I can't be upset with myself, because whether I'm Sad or Happy it doesn't change the fact that Matthew's gone. So I must step up to the batting plate, hit the ball, and run without continually looking back. Here I come 1st base.
Valentines Day came and went! We've decided to make it a tradition (just as last year) to just order a pizza and enjoy our little family.
We've gone sledding a few times this month. Jackson LOVES playing in the snow. I guess what kid doesn't? When I look at my little boy I can't believe how big he is getting! He knows his colors, he knows TONS of words, and is learning So much every day! It blows my mind how fast he has grown. It feels almost like yesterday that he joined our lives.
My parents came into town for the 3 day weekend- we enjoyed their company and hanging out with the family.
Jackson LOVES "my jesse, my teagen".
Playing Wii
I never thought I would see this day but YES that is my Dad playing Wii! Haha he loved bowling. It was so fun to watch him get into it. Love you Dad!
Today we went to Olive Garden to celebrate my birthday tomorrow. I feel like I just had a birthday, but here it is again. Another year, more experiences, and more happiness to come.
I love my little family. Not a day goes by that I am not great full to have Brent and Jackson in my life. I'm so glad I was able to provide a safe place for Matthew for a short time, though he left to soon for us to "really" meet him. We love him still the same.
=Looking forward to the rest of this month-
=Looking forward to the rest of this month-
